That's really bringing me down these days.
In other news, Annalee won't let me out of the house. She doesn't want me going out to find my mom I guess. I mean, I get that. But I'm not a fucking kid. And it feels like I'm in prison or something. I never really realized how little freedom I have. Since I've gotten here, she hasn't trusted me to go anywhere alone. Annalee has all but literally chained me to my desk. She just keeps glaring at me from across the room, it's freaking me out. Basically, I'm not getting a moment to myself any time soon.
Now that I've got all this free time I've been going back through my old blog posts (nothing better to do. Why can't I remember how I spent all my fucking time before this?). Way back in the beginning I said that I wouldn't be hanging around with Annalee for very long. It's kinda weird to read that now, I mean, I'd completely forgotten about ever planning to leave. I don't know where I thought I'd go. And I'm obviously not going anywhere now with her literally keeping an eye on me every second.
Anna
was also pretty pissed about me posting that last conversation. I am
having a really hard time feeling sorry about it though. I deserved
to know, (I deserved to know a LONG time ago), and now it's down in
print, it's on the internet and it can never be completely deleted.
It was about time I got the chance to have the upper hand on
her.
I'm rambling. But anyway, I may be on here more often than usual cause I'm so bored. And I need something to keep me from staring at the door. She's my mother Annalee.
I'm rambling. But anyway, I may be on here more often than usual cause I'm so bored. And I need something to keep me from staring at the door. She's my mother Annalee.
Dude, that's kinda fucked up. You being chained up like that. I mean, who the fuck is she to do that?
ReplyDeleteFucked up, man.
ALL BUT chained up. Implying that I'm not actually in chains. Annalee's a psycho bitch, but she's not that psycho. Then again, she did tie me to a chair, so your assumption wasn't too far off the mark.
DeleteYou are like the last person who gets an opinion.
DeleteShe's probably doing it to protect you, I mean, it's obvious that she cares about you. But I think I'm stating the obvious here.
ReplyDeleteIt pains me to hear that you never got to know your Mother. I hope that you will find away to solve both of your problems.
Anna, are the words 'self fulfilling prophecy' meaning anything to you?
ReplyDeleteIt's in your head, right? So it's close to the brain.
ReplyDeleteI know this will sounds crazy, but how about exposure to Azoth? Not a massive amount, just a little bit. Azoth proved to begin manifesting in the brain, near the nervous system. It also proved to be protective of the human body it manifests in, so maybe, if you inject some Azoth, it will take care of the device?
However, I don't need to tell you, that, that solution is a double edged sword.
Yeah that's a stupid idea. For one, it might disable the damn thing but there wouldn't be any secure way of knowing outside of attempting to get Danny killed. Also Azoth is like the last thing you want to inject yourself with. That's like trying to kill food poisoning by injecting yourself with the Bubonic Plague.
DeleteWell, not necessarily true.
DeleteThere are countless records of Azoth being controlled and used as a weapon by the host. So, compared to the device that Daniel has in him, at least with Azoth you have some chance of surviving, plus, possibly gaining a new weapon.
But as I said, this solution is a double edged sword. And sadly, it is the only solution so far, unless you can do surgery and surgically remove the device. Unless, this "Contat" of yours, already attempted to remove the device surgically and failed, well then, Azoth is the only option you have so far.
However, I hope you find other possibilities of removal.
We're not using Azoth. End of story.
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