So I got sick. It happens! I'm not the jock type, no, I'm the type of guy that jocks use as pin cushions and stepping stones if you really MUST know. My asthma screwed me up about when I came down with the flu and it put me out for a while. Big deal! I've been through worse and I'm a LONG way from useless, everyone!
Can I just take this opportunity to say that I do not have it easy, and literally none of you have ANY idea. I am NOT whining, I just want to get my point across. All those (coughINCOGNITOYOUPIECEOFINCREDIBLYCOGNITOBULLSHITcough) people who decided to recommend that Annalee treats me like DIRT because I got SICK, you can crawl all the fucking way over here and KISS MY ASS.
LMFAO. First you get interrogated, now you get brutal training, I imagine? That is excellent.
ReplyDeleteSincerely,
one of the little shits
Nobody said about treating you like dirt. And nobody said you were useless, far from it, your computer skills are very useful. But they won't come in handy once you are stuck in a combat situation.
ReplyDeleteBelieve it or not, Annalee won't always be around to protect your ass, and if you want to survive, you better stop drowning yourself in self pity, or you won't get far, with or without Annalee.
I'm not saying go full, fucking, commando, I'm saying that it wouldn't hurt, in fact, it would be very useful, if you learned some basic combat skills and tricks, not to mention how to wield a weapon.
You think those monsters will give two shits that you have Asthma or some other shit? You think they will give you some time to take a breather? No, they fucking won't and if you think that you will always have someone around to protect you, you are mistaken.
Your a kid, I don't blame you for your stubbornness, but your in a middle of a war, I won't waste my time explaining to you the dangers IT presents, since you yourself know about them. It's time to grow up.
You chose to fight along with Annalee, not run, but fight. So I suggest you start preparing for fights, otherwise you might compromise the safety of your partner.
And the faster you admit to yourself, that you won't be able to hide behind someone else, or a keyboard all the time, the better.
- Mr. Incognito.
You know what? Maybe I just DON'T GIVE A FUCK. Does that make sense to you? Probably not. You think I'm drowning in self pity? Honestly? And you think I seriously DON'T KNOW WHAT I'VE GOTTEN MY SORRY, PATHETIC ASS INTO? You're dead WRONG, motherfucker. I know it all, ALL TOO FUCKING WELL.
DeleteEverything you just said was so horribly, terribly wrong that I'm laughing through the urge to smack your ugly face in with a cinderblock.
Yeah I'm good with computers, and that's about it. Yeah, I KNOW Annalee won't be around to protect me always, and guess what? I DO NOT EXPECT HER TO BE. I will die a horrible, painful, lonely death at a young age. I will not live my live, and I won't get to experience the good ol' American dream.
You have got me all wrong, jackass! Annalee Cardinal is the only reason, the ONLY reason I have made it this far, and she's the ONLY HOPE I HAVE. She wants to dump my ass out in the woods somewhere and let the Proxies or our thin pal pick up where they left off, not only is she well in her rights to, she would probably BE BETTER OFF. And you seem to think not only that every single little one of these thoughts doesn't haunt my every fucking waking moment, but that I'm, what, LAZY? You think I'm just stupid? Naiive? Oh you piece of shit you have NO IDEA. So GET OFF MY BACK and LET ME LIVE WHAT I HAVE LEFT OF MY MEANINGLESS, SAD LITTLE LIFE THE WAY I FUCKING WANT TO LIVE IT.
Also so help me god IF YOU CAN USE BIG CONDESCENDING WORDS IN MY FACE TWENTY FOUR HOURS A FUCKING DAY, YOU CAN LEARN THE GODDAMN DIFFERENCE BETWEEN "YOUR" AND "YOU'RE", YOU ILLITERATE PIECE OF GARBAGE.
If you don't give a fuck, why do you still hang around? Why do you still travel with her? Why did you chose to fight? Why does it steer you up so much?
DeleteIf you don't give a fuck, why are you going out of your way to convince me that you don't give a fuck?
I don't try to get you right, assumptions, all those things are assumptions I'm no psychologist, and I'm no philosopher. If you want to die, why live right now at all? Why not end it right now?
You are contradicting yourself. I never said you didn't understand how to be in the middle of this shit, in fact, you understand fully well what its like to be in the middle of this shit, because if you didn't understand, you wouldn't be here in the first place.
I don't think anything about you, because at the end of the day, I don't know you, the same as I don't know Annalee, Sanna, Rose and so on...
Every assumption I make is based off of what you people write, and what I had red so far, I doubt she would dump your ass in the middle of nowhere, but then again, I don't know her, same with you, I never said I knew you.
If you were naive, lazy and everything else you just said in that comment, I repeat, you wouldn't be alive right now, plain and simple.
I believe you have the desire to live, right now and after this, that you do give a fuck, proof of that? You are here right now, commenting, posting, something pushed you to survive for this long, even before you met Annalee, I doubt both of you started surviving together from the very beginning, but then again I can be wrong.
But if I am right, then something pushed you forward, to survive, even before you met Annalee, and that alone is enough proof, that you do give a fuck, in fact you give a lot of fucks.
Then again, I don't know you and I can be wrong, it is just an assumption.
- Mr. Incognito.
Wrong again, asswipe.
DeleteI keep going and frankly I don't have a clue why, okay? It would be SO EASY to hole up again in a little basement with my games and computers and shots and pills of god knows what, settle in for another hell of a ride before they end me. And part of me really, really wants to do that. But here I am, and I get up in the morning, and I do what Anna tells me to do, and I have been clean for YEARS, which from what I've read is impressive, going cold turkey altogether is HARD SHIT, and whoopee, I'm still alive!
It's just a case of playing hard on your very last life and knowing that no matter how good you are and no matter how hard you try, you're still fifty fucking levels away from the high score and you are officially out of quarters. That's all I'm doing here.
So you yourself don't know what drives you, tell me then, what kind of possible final decision can you make and argue with others about what they suggest, if you yourself, don't know what you want.
DeleteDo you want to live? Do you want to die? Do you want to live now, and die later?
You, yourself don't know, you said it yourself.
- Mr. Incognito.
Dude, is it that hard to understand that I just don't CARE? If I'm alive, that's great, yay for me! But I'm going to die. You said it yourself. I'm a pansy-ass bitch and the bad guys don't care. I've stopped caring too, that's all it is. Why delay the inevitable? Why try and hold the nightmares off? Why do anything but sit here and code and try and make myself somewhat useful to the one person who's got a CHANCE?
DeleteI don't want her to waste training on me and I DON'T want to make it in any way hard for her to leave me to die when she has to.
Well then you suck at doing it.
DeleteWhy try and hold the nightmares off? I'll tell you why, so they wouldn't claim another person, you think that if you just roll over and die, all your problems will be solved? Hell no, all you will end up doing is disorient everyone emotionally and because of that distract them and compromise their survival.
She wouldn't waste her training on you, she would make you capable of taking care of yourself, so that she wouldn't have to babysit you every time your in a dangerous position. She would know for sure that you could handle yourself and then she wouldn't have to think that you are in danger and get distracted.
You think, why did she waste time nursing you back to health, why did she interrogate you about a prank instead of just shooting you between the eyes? There are two possible reasons behind that:
1. She doesn't want you to die, maybe she actually wants to give you enough chances to survive this, and your just being a stubborn moose, and because of that she is wasting her time, yet she won't back down, because as I already said, she might want you to survive until the end.
2. Your good with tech, she's not, if you die, there will be nobody to take care of that techno jumbo. Which means that her chances for survival will be lower. So she tries to help you out, because you are a valuable asset. And every time you refuse to survive, you just distract her.
I doubt, she would simply end up abandoning you in the middle of nowhere one day. So you see, your "Not giving a fuck" plan could have a lot of holes in it.
Again, just assumptions.
- Mr. Incognito.
Shut the fuck up, dickwipe. I've had enough. Step the FUCK out of my business and back into yours before some halfwit Proxy clocks you over the head with some piece of shit again and leaves annoying taunty bullshit messages on your fucking blog.
DeleteFair enough, I believe I got my point across anyway.
Delete- Mr. Incognito.
You got nothing across except giving me shit over my outlook, personality, abilities and my feeble attempt at defending myself. I hope you're real proud of yourself.
DeleteIs Daniel on his man period?
DeleteGo through half the shit I have and then say that to my face.
DeleteI'm not trying to invalidate your feelings, Daniel, and neither was Incognito. I would appreciate it if you didn't invalidate our feelings too. Don't assume you're the only one who puts up with shit -- EVER.
DeleteWhen I ignore Incognito's advice, I get into a bad situation and everything goes arse over tit... so, yeah, hear him out. He won't tell you want you want to hear, but he'll tell you what will keep you alive.
Good Morning Daniel.
ReplyDeleteI see you've made an astonishing recovery since last night. Not even well enough to eat, but somehow well enough to go on a verbally abusive tirade and piss on every single one of our "legions of adoring fans." What a feat.
Get off the fucking computer you sorry pathetic little shit before you embarrass yourself anymore. This isn't your fucking diary Daniel. Pick your sorry ass off of the my goddamn couch, go outside and think about all the fucking shit that just came out of your keyboard. I'l be out in a minute and the two of us are going to have a goddamn chat.
Daniel, four words.
ReplyDeleteGrow.The.Fuck.Up.
Daniel...um...
ReplyDeleteSorry?
I didn't suggest ANYTHING. I was AGAINST all these insane people up here!
Don't apologize honey, you're just going to encourage him. Danny is being a snotty and whiney brat at the moment and the last thing he needs is anyone's pity.
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